Semester 3...

        Finally, Semester 3 is over!! There are really a lot of things happened during this semester, be it personally, emotionally, physically, or mentally. 

         First of all, my physical and mental have been really be tested this semester. Especially during cooking class. I've never felt so afraid of entering a kitchen before in my whole 20 years of life. I've been so cool and stress-free whenever I cooked for my family. But this cooking class, it's really making me nervous all the time and the fear I feel inside me when I'm in this class is UNBEARABLE, at first. But it gets better after I've gotten used to the kitchen, lab staffs and lecturer. At some point, I feel like I could pass this subject quite good, 'cause I've already got the basics in cooking (thanks to my mum for 'forcing' me to learn to help in the kitchen when I was small and learn how to cook when I was in Form 1, I think), especially in Malay and Chinese cuisines. But as the time goes by, the lessons in the kitchen are getting more exciting and torturing at the same time. Exciting, because I get to learn to cook Western dishes! Chicken chop, fish fillet, fish and chip, and even lasagna! Haha... But the torturing part, overcome the exciting part... 

         We were given an assignment, called the 'recipe testing' that requires us to cook a one-dish-meal or a main course dish. My group, consist of me and two other Malay gurls, were asked to do rendang ayam, sambal jawa and nasi himpit. At the beginning of the assignment, it was still going on quite well, until we failed to do the rendang ayam and nasi himpit. So, we were asked by the lecturer to do it again. After the fourth tries, we managed to pass the rendang ayam, but we still need to redo the nasi himpit. We were told from the beginning of the assignment by the lecturer that, our senior did not manage to do the nasi himpit after the 11th tries! We already expected this situation. So, we are okay with it, at first. after the fifth try, we still did not manage to get the right texture of the dish. Then, we were asked to do it after the Haji break. After that break, I received news from one of my group members that the lecturer is not around and will only be back on 6th of DEC!! I was like, WHAT???!!! How are we supposed to do our assignment without him around??? On the 28th, I received news that the lecturer asked us to redo AFTER 6th of Dec! OMG!! I am totally speechless at that time. I really don't know what to do! There's one paper on the next day, and suddenly, this thing pops out??! I totally can't concentrate on what I'm doing, be it reading or memorizing! I've already bought ticket back home on 2nd of Dec! Now, how am I supposed to go back?? Then, after that paper on 29th, I straight away went to seniors' house and asked for their opinions. The solution I got from them, stay back to avoid being attacked by him the next 2 semesters! I don't want!! But what else can I do? And then, on the day after, I text-ed him, asking when can I call him to discuss about the assignment. You know what he replied?? "After 12th DEC!!!" I was like, WTF!!!!!! First, you told us, 6th and now, 12th??? Are you playing with us??? Then when I think back, okay lah..At least, I can go back home and not let the ticket go to waste. Till now, we totally have no news about him or the assignment. I wonder how is he able to mark all our papers and at the same time, wanna redo the assignment. Haihhh.... Okay... Don't talk about it anymore... NEXT!!

         In this very semester, I had a crush on two guys!! I wasn't sure it was crush actually. I just feel happy whenever I'm with them. One of my housemate who knew it, asked me how on earth could I possibly had a crush on someone who keeps on teasing you. Aren't girls always fell in love with guys that treated her nice and took good care of her? Honestly, I can't answer that question. I guess I am different from the other gurls. I always blame myself  for having a crush so easily. It felt like I'm very 花心. But I knew deep down in my heart, I just felt so lonely. I get jealous very easily when I see couples around me. I know I'm not as pretty as them, not as slim and got such a great body shape as them, but don't I deserve it? Haihh....talking about the two guys, both of them keep on changing places, alternating inside my heart. I never had the guts to tell them what I felt about them. I've always been like this. The last time I've kinda told a guy, whom I'm really close with, he make it straight to the point that we were only gonna be best friends forever! At that time, it hurts so badly that I actually cried because of a guy, for the first time! He's totally a jerk!! Best friend konon!! So, I told myself, I'll never to make the first move anymore! After all, I'm a gurl (that's what most people said, girls NEVER make the first move). Anyways, I should let them go, too. I don't think it'll go any further than being just friends. I guess I will never have the chance to encounter any love story in university life. :(((

         Anyways, there are a lot of good things happened too, in this semester. I finally got the chance to become a facilitator for the juniors. Haha... The relationships between our coursemates also has gotten very close as compared to the first two semesters. And I think the best thing that happened in this semester is during my birthday. This year's birthday really surprised me the most. I totally can't believe that the seniors of the Buddhist Society are willing to stay outside of the kitchen of about 2 hours just to give me a surprise. Thanks a lot to all of them! This semester, I got myself busy with some of the Buddhist Society's activities. I never knew that joining this society will be this exciting. I always thought that it will be boring. But I was wrong. The Buddhas' teachings really helps me a lot in my daily lifestyles, even though I can't seems to apply it in some of the cases that happened throughout this semester. Hehe.... And not forgetting, my housemates!! Haha...living with them is the most right thing to do rather than stay at hostel! ^-^ Even though there are some things that I'm not satisfied about at first, but eventually I get used to it and now, we are really like a family! 

          I think that's all I for now. That's all I can think of right now. Hopefully I will not need to go back to university on the 12th. Dear lecturer, please be nice ya!~