Limitations...

I am not a person who likes to see people's privacy~~ This, I can guarantee you~~

虽然你们都看我这么八，那么无聊~~但你们可以放心~我知道我的limit的~~我知道什么是该做的，什么是不该做的~~如果你是担心我会利用你所给我的东西的话，请你放心，我不会那么八到不会想那一个是对的，那一个是错的~~哈哈~~

having headache， but still kena marah!! TT

dilemma~~~

Sometimes, I really wonder.....
Even if you treat them so good, you get nothing!!
Why must I suffer myself and get myself into trouble????
Just because I want to help the people I care, I get myself into trouble???
Is it worth it???
They don't even know I'm the one who suffers!!
They don't even know they are the reason behind my sadness!!
If I think about their problems, I keep finding solutions to minimize their sufferings, would they ever think about mine???! Would they EVER know????
haiz......

What should I do this time???

I couldn't tell him that he can no longer stay here 'cause they don't want a guy living with them! That's ridiculous!!!
I also couldn't tell her to live with them, all by herself! Not after what I know what her conditions are! She couldn't even sleep at night with a slight sound of chairs moving, let alone stay in a house with strangers!!~
I couldn't tell them that they can't stay at this house anymore just because they don't want a guy living with them!!
I just want a room, with a toilet, with affordable price and everyone lives happily!! Is that too much to ask for???

WHAT SHOULD I DO?????! SOMEONE， HELP ME!!!~ 我真的不知道要怎么做了~~ 两边都是我的好朋友！！

我们俩是不可能的~~

说真的，我越来越觉得害怕~~

害怕会开始习惯了~~

害怕会习惯你的存在~

害怕会习惯你的声音~

害怕会习惯每一天搜到你的SMS~

害怕会习惯有你的日子~

害怕会习惯你的一切~~

最怕的是，害怕会爱上你~

害怕现在已经开始喜欢上你了~~

所以，从现在开始，

我要努力地去不喜欢你~~

我要努力地去不爱你~~

我要努力地不要习惯你的存在~~

我要努力地不要习惯你的声音~~

我要努力地不要每天和你SMS

我要努力地不要习惯有你的日子~~

我要努力地不要习惯你的一切~~

因为，

我知道我们俩是不可能的~~

你是不可能会喜欢上我的~~

你是不可能会爱上我的~~

我真的真的很害怕~~怎么办才好？？ TT

Finally there's one thing that I could make you laughed up to this level~ Hopefully, it will stay this way~~  ^_^

我承认我喜欢你~那又怎样？至少我敢承认~~那你呢？？
喜欢一个人有错吗？？为什么要把这一切搞到这个地步？？
我自己觉得如果喜欢一个人就要说出来~你不知道是否对方也是喜欢你的~
如果你没说出来的话，那你就有可能会错过这个机会~
其实我并不觉得后悔我有告诉你这个事~
虽然我知道我和你是不可能的，但我还是希望你永远过得开心的~~
也会找到比我更好的女人~~

有时候突然心情很低落，


不想说话也不想动。



别人问起，也不知道该怎样回答。


明明自己身边有很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。


也许是因为突然听到的一句话，


也许是看见某个物体联想到了什么，


也许是朋友那发来的一条短信，


也许什么都不是。


其实，很多事情不需要理由，也没有理由。



这样的情绪有人可以理解吗？

Love or just for fun?

I know it's not possible~ You said before, you won't fall for your close friends~ But why I could sense that you had feelings for her? Why your every actions lead me to believing that you actually had feelings for her? Your every body languages, every 眼神 when you look at her, every status about her made me believe that you already fall for her~~ But why each time we talked about it, you just wouldn't want to tell the truth~ Is it really love or you're just playing around with her feelings?